my one sided love

one way street,one aching heart
one throbbing question,blaming my wishing part.
one good enough reason,one night with you
one chance to shine,to find one little proof
one minute of that hour,one hour in that one night
one answer to my question,one hug quick but tight.
one apology for falling and one "thank you" for lying
one story to tell of one love that's dying.
one word to hurt me as one cure for my sickness
one pill for my addiction could be one stab in my weakness.
one prayer for strength or maybe one light kiss
one little finger of yours,just one pinky promise.
one wish to fulfill one of the many wishes above
one and every one,the desires of my one sided love.

heartfelt words meant to be told but never meant to be heard.

the boy:
when she left,
and it struck me that she was leaving for good.
i felt that part of me leaving as well,
like as if it belonged to her...
though it didnt.
maybe it did.
but it left...
that part of me...
that part of me that i wished would come back,
to make me whole again.
that part of me with her by its side.
it would never be the same again.

the girl:
when i turned and walked
i felt light and empty.
i knew i left myself with him...
to guide him through his lonely nights.
now walking as a frozen body or a living corpse.
i have no worries.
for i know ive kept my promise of never letting him go.

though im leaving,i have not left.
even in this deliberateness,i am not deliberate.
though i am crying,i am not sad.
though i am empty on the inside,
im glad he still has me with him.
to catch him when he falls.
because protecting him is protecting me.
for if he trips and falls
it is me who dies.
that is why i left her there,together with him.
though it will kill me...
but it will protect him.
my abandoned soul...
his guardian angel.

a boy,the boy,that boy,my boy...oh boy!!!!

he was the reason i woke up every morning to go to school for,
but now that he's out of my life,
i wish i never had to wake again...anymore....
i hope i could just carry on sleeping...
and never get up to see my day so colourless and dull.
for he never failed to brighten it with the colours of his smile.
the boy who never failed to make my day.
the boy who never failed to make me smile.
a boy,
the boy,
that boy,
my boy,
sitting at the corner in class,
waiting...
to catch a glimpse of me catching a glimpse of him.

wait no more...

And she cries herself to sleep,yes,she cries herself to sleep.
She knows shes being robbed ,all trapped up in this sweet deceit.


Her innocence is stolen,never to be found again.
Her emotions are screaming,soaked deep in endless pain.
She gave her heart so freely,without one scar or crack.
He breaks it before returning it,but she doesnt want it back.
The invasion of her mind and soul,by the thoughts of only him.
She just cant seem to awake,from this nightmare disguised as a dream.
The lonely nights she longed for him,holding his promise tight.
Her eyes were puffy without its sleep,but still he was never in sight.
Like a drop of blood in water,his lies they slowly spread.
They creep into her conscience but she still doesnt regret.
The blade of happy endings was just within her touch.
He was the only beautiful thing she ever wanted so much.
The pain that was felt on her wrist was not a pain at all.
She told herself shes been through worse and to the ground she falls.
And there she lay sprawled on the tiles,the church bells start to chime,
The story of an innocent girl who fell in the hands of his crime.


And she cries herself to death,yes,she cries herself to death.
Her tears they start to evaporate as she draws her very last breath.

in the hands of his crime

yes....i deserve all these pieces of shit that is cruelly dumped on me....

where did all that ego and pride drown in whatever ocean i wasnt even sailing in...

yet a part still lingers on...searching for its long lost soul...

hoping it will return...knowing it has gone...gone somewhere it can never turn back and face the reality of fate...

yet it embraces how its locked up in these four walls...

enclosed in this place called "a stupid love"...

that little light shining from a peep hole on the wall..

but it chooses to look into the darkness that surrounds everything else...

the feminist,the man hater,the confidence and the loud one...

all diminished in the hands of his crime...