heartfelt words meant to be told but never meant to be heard.

the boy:
when she left,
and it struck me that she was leaving for good.
i felt that part of me leaving as well,
like as if it belonged to her...
though it didnt.
maybe it did.
but it left...
that part of me...
that part of me that i wished would come back,
to make me whole again.
that part of me with her by its side.
it would never be the same again.

the girl:
when i turned and walked
i felt light and empty.
i knew i left myself with him...
to guide him through his lonely nights.
now walking as a frozen body or a living corpse.
i have no worries.
for i know ive kept my promise of never letting him go.

though im leaving,i have not left.
even in this deliberateness,i am not deliberate.
though i am crying,i am not sad.
though i am empty on the inside,
im glad he still has me with him.
to catch him when he falls.
because protecting him is protecting me.
for if he trips and falls
it is me who dies.
that is why i left her there,together with him.
though it will kill me...
but it will protect him.
my abandoned soul...
his guardian angel.