"DUST"

I love you so much

I want to be cremated when i die

I dont want anyone to see you in my remains

for you are engraved on my bones

I love you so much

I want you dead when I am

I want to run away with you to a place we never would

I want us to live with a tribal group and dance naked in their rituals

I want to drink your blood and you to drink mine

I love you so much

I want us to bleed under the same blade

drown in the same waters

burn in the same fire

I want to feel the pain when you are hurt

and I want you to cry when I am feeling sad

I love you so much

I want to walk into the ocean holding your hands

and we will make our way into the sunset

I want to be sure that we are one

and when we are alone and poor

your touch will fill my hunger

and my kiss will quench your thirst

and we would live off each other

you will feed from me

and I will feed from you

and they will find us cold

they will think that we are gone

though we are still here

I love you so much

I want us to rest in the same grave

and vanish in the same ground

and time will reveal that we are one

when we turn into the same.....

DUST....

a sweet secret mistake.

You were not suppose to happen,

For you brought the definition of love to a whole new stature.

you wont believe me when I tell you that you run in my blood...

when I think of you...

blood rush to my head…

and you flush in my cheeks... you twinkle in my eye...

and you peek in my smile...

you robbed me of my coldness and you forced warmth on me...

and when I resisted it...

I resisted you...

but you held my neck and forced it down my throat...

I could taste you in my tongue...

the sweet subtle flavour of your love that I disliked.

I spit you out time and time again...

but like poison you stayed in my being...sweet poison.

I felt whiter by the day and I was visible in daylight...

and I despised you for making me look alive...

I count my days to my slumber...

and I think of what they would do when they find my body...

I dont want them to know about you...

I run home and I lay in my tub...

I start scrubbing my skin...

I want to demolish all evidence of you on me...

the little redness that you left on my neck...

the fingerprints that you have left all over my body...

your smell that still lingers in my hair...

I scrub harder and harder till my skin peels off...and the tub slowly fills with blood...

I dont want them to know about you...

I told you I never want your kindness...

and I never did...

I started to turn dark again...

and my heart was getting heavy again...

I felt lifeless again...

you were slowly drained out from me…

my cheeks went pale again...

my eyes lost their sparkle...

my smile upturned itself...

I felt cold again…

I trace my tongue around my palette...and I dont taste you anymore...

the knocks on the door grow fainter as your voice fades away…

run!!!

run away from here…

run away from me…

I don’t want them to know about you…

You are too beautiful to exist in my life.